no place for promises here

  • I want to be in a hot spring in Iceland.
  • I’m so very tired. 
  • My knee is fucked.  Arthritis flare up. That’s prob why I’m so tired.
  • I met the cutest little old couple today at the Jeff co office.  I kind of love them now. They made me laugh.  The old guy was like, “Tell Scott I said hi. He and I are tight.” Adorable.  It’s refreshing to meet the good ones. The good ones keep me going.
  • I’ve been ridiculously stressed this last week. I can’t even write it down. It’s just too much.
  • Been listening to The Bones Of What You Believe over and over and over. *IT’S SO GOOD*
  • I bought a new blanket for my bed and I love it. I may just stay here for a while. I have my bed, wine, and my laptop. What else do I really need?
  • My boyfriend. I need him here, too.  And maybe a cupcake or three.
  • For dinner, I ate 840 calories worth of feta & caramelized onion tarts. No regrets.  I love Trader Joe’s.
  • Oh and also pork bao. I fucking love that shit. You can also get that at TJ’s.
  • The bf and I have been watching True Detective. I can’t figure out if I’m into it or not. I’m going to finish it b/c I feel like I should.  But GoT has been so awesome this season. The last episode was amazing, and I think I’m going to re-watch it.  I’m super excited about OITNB season 2. It’s almost time!
  • It’s time to get hardcore about working out. I want to get into better shape.  I plan on doing some yoga tomorrow morning, along with squats, planks, and abdominal work. I’m going to keep track of my progress with pics, and keep using My Fitness Pal (I love that app so much).   I may post the before pic here if I’m brave enough.
  • Why am I still awake?

bullets

  • My trainer kicked my ass yesterday.  I had a guy come up to me afterward to tell me he had been watching, and was impressed that I made it through, since he didn’t think he could have. He was in really good shape, so that was a nice compliment. In case you were wondering, jumping rope is super hard.  I used to do it all the time as a kid. Now…it’s not pretty.  Holy fuck. 
  • Tomorrow is chemo #3. I’m dreading it.
  • I had my third fill today.  Everything is looking really good, and even though I’m sore right now, I like the results. The nurse said I will likely have my exchange surgery in May.  I’m way excited.
  • I had a good day yesterday, and an even better night.  I got to hang out with my awesome boyfriend.  We had dinner, and then watched The Increasingly Poor Decisions of Todd Margaret.  That show is really funny.
  • I want season 2 of The Most Popular Girls in School to start.
  • The new Tegan & Sara album is pretty good. It’s no So Jealous, but what is?  I’m excited for the concert in March.  I’ve been listening to them a lot lately, and rediscovering old songs.  I love that.  I cannot listen to So Jealous without being reminded of studying for the bar exam.  I listened to it on repeat when I drove to Jefferson City to sit for the exam. It’s weird to think that was over six years ago.
  • My range of motion is almost back to what it was pre-surgery.  This makes me very happy.  I still have a difficult time opening jars and bottles, but I’m pleased with my overall progress.
  • Why are cherry sours so good?  I cannot buy more of these. They are addicting.
  • I’m planning to spend the weekend in my comfy bed, watching movies, and eating all the things (because steroids are evil).  I have a crap ton of horror movies in my Netflix instant queue, so I guess I will start there.
  • I AM SO TIRED. I need to start going to bed earlier.
  • This post is boring. Peace out.