fitness challenge

I’ve decided to challenge myself to be really on the ball with my fitness for the next 30 days.  I’m doing a 30 day plank challenge, as well as the 30 day squat challenge

I’d like to work on my arms, but that is slightly more challenging with these implants.  I need to work the arm muscles without engaging the chest muscles.  It’s harder than you’d think. Since my mastectomies, I’ve realized that we use our chest muscles kind of a lot.  Feel free to pass along any suggestions. 

Oh and I’m adding half-marathon training into the mix as well. I have a 16 week program I’m starting in June. 

my stats


128.5 lbs

Waist: 27 inches

Hips 36 inches


It’s hard to take a decent full body pic with this phone, but you get the general idea of what I’m working with. 

on my mind

  • Since getting back from Mexico, I have been so sick. I’m pretty sure it’s because I slipped up and brushed my teeth with tap water once. Ugh. It’s getting slowly better. I’m trying to decide if it’s worth a trip to the doctor. It’s definitely interfering with my running, which sucks because the half-marathon is like 11 days away.
  • I’m so not ready to run 13.1 miles. The farthest I’ve gone is 10.  I know I can do it, but will I do it as fast as I’d like? I’m crazy nervous about it. 
  • I bought a pair of leggings today (my first pair ever) while I was at Target, and holy shit these things are comfy. 
  • I also bought a scale today.  It’s not pretty, but I’ve caught it early, and only need to lose about 10 pounds. Or maybe just 5 pounds…I don’t really know.  It’s hard to figure out what is a realistic weight that I can actually maintain without giving up all the stuff I enjoy. 
  • I’m way over Tamoxifen. 
  • People I know on Facebook are seriously pissing me off with their astounding ignorance. I need to just avoid it until the government shutdown/Obamacare nonsense is over. 
  • If somebody sends me one of those FB messages all about changing my status to something stupid like listing the color of my bra to promote breast cancer awareness, I’M GOING TO FLIP MY SHIT. DON’T EVEN GO THERE WITH ME…I SWEAR TO FUCKING GOD.
  • I’m feeling quite rage-y about breast cancer this week. I know it is because it has almost been a year since my diagnosis.  I’ve been thinking about it a lot recently, and I imagine it will be on my mind a lot for the next few months.  October 2012 was the start of a year of hell for me, and came on the heels of the great separation/divorce drama of 2012.  Fuck 2012. So fucking hard. 
  • Divorce is pissing me off this week too, but I won’t go there. 

Running, running as fast as we can…

Danielle and I ran six miles today. I’m pleased to report I ran the entire time. Progress!

For those that are interested in knowing, a full lap around Forest Park is 5.7 miles. It’s weird to be at the point where we lap it and have to keep going. Crazy. When we passed my car, I wanted to cry. My best pace was during the 4th mile, which we completed in 9 min 6 sec. Like a fucking boss. 🙂

A special run

It certainly wasn’t special because of the mileage or the pace. In fact, I pretty much sucked today because of an arthritis flare and a bit of a hangover (I know…excuses, excuses). However, as I was running along my favorite trail in Forest Park, the song So Alive by Ryan Adams came on and I cried a little bit. That song really touches me; hearing it drove home just how happy and grateful I am for my life right now. The remission news yesterday was such a huge relief. I cannot begin to describe the weight that has been lifted.

After that song, Party in the USA by Miley Cyrus came on (Don’t hate. That’s a good running song). The lyrics remind me so much of how I felt when I first moved to Los Angeles, and never fails to make me smile, even on the toughest runs. It was pretty much perfect timing as far as my playlist was concerned.

Hearing that song made me think of living in California with the ex, which reminded me that today would have been my 9th wedding anniversary. That’s bittersweet for sure, but I don’t regret any of it. In fact, for the first time ever I can honestly say that I don’t regret any aspect of my life. Even the worst times, and there have been some doozies, were experiences worth having. My entire life, the good and the bad, have made me who I am today, and I’m pretty damn awesome.

So yeah… today’s run, while mediocre in many respects, was special to me. I will now step off my soapbox, and leave you with pics from today’s run. I love running in Forest Park. I’m not convinced I would get up so early if I wasn’t running in such a beautiful location. City living, ftw.

I went on a shopping trip to True Runner last night. I finally bought some proper running shoes. What a difference! I also purchased the Garmin and a running skirt. Both are awesome. If it wasn’t for the 90% humidity this morning, my run would have been great. Unfortunately, that amount of humidity makes me feel like I’m breathing cotton, and so there was a lot of walking on the second half of the run. 4 miles on Saturday!