this one goes out to the one i love

I’ll remember April 12, 2012 for the rest of my life. The day there was no going back. I’ll always remember how you said that if we wanted things to work out then they could. I didn’t believe something so wonderful could ever be possible, and yet here we are four years later.

It hasn’t always been easy, but it has always been worth it.

Welcome to season five! It’s going to be the best one yet.


and so it goes

I totally forgot that yesterday was the three year anniversary of my bilateral mastectomy until Timehop reminded me. It’s strange to remember now how overwhelming it all felt back then, how I felt forever changed, and like my life would never be the same. And…I guess it’s really not the same, but somehow it is even better. I am better. Back in 2012, I certainly never thought a day would go by where I would forget to worry about it. I remember reading that as time passes, cancer feels less like a book and more like a chapter. That is becoming truer for me with each passing day. 

Life goes on. There is laughter, happiness, life, and love, even after something so tragic. You just have to grab it. 

No regrets

I was married ten years ago today.

Now I am divorced.

And so it goes.

I wonder if it ever stops feeling strange. I wonder if someday August 8th won’t mean anything to me or maybe it simply won’t jump out at me right away.
I’m not sad. It’s an odd feeling that is difficult to explain. But ultimately, it feels like things are exactly as they should be.