My goal has been to run the Komen 5k in 35 minutes.  Today I did it in 35:46.  Considering that was with an extremely swollen right knee, I’m thinking it’s time for a new goal.  New goal: 33 minutes.   I have 7 weeks to improve. 

Oh yeah, and I ran the entire time.  This is a big improvement over last week. I’m pleased. 

I can deal with hot flashes. I can deal with warm weather. But dealing with both totally sucks. I turned on the air conditioning tonight. Saving money just isn’t worth it.

I’m trying to maintain a good attitude. It’s hard today. Chronic pain sucks. I’ve been living like this for 10 years and it hasn’t gotten any easier. The middle finger on my right hand is so swollen that I can hardly use that hand. Jax brushed against it earlier and I screamed. My right knee is so swollen that it’s hard to walk. The right side of my body hates me a little more than the left. Ha ha.

But ya know what? Marijuana and oxycodone…they help a bit. Psoriatic arthritis and breast cancer? I think I’m entitled.

Of course, it feels stupid to complain about the arthritis after dealing with the cancer, but it still hurts like hell so whatever. Life is weird.

But…at least I’m alive. There’s that.

  • I have tickets to go see The Neighbourhood in June. I am so excited. 
  • Speaking of music, the new Yeah Yeah Yeahs album is really good. I like it a lot.  If they end up coming to St. Louis this year, then I will end up seeing all of my favorite bands in 2013 (the nbhd, tegan & sara, dave matthews band, and YYY).  That would be very exciting. 
  • My new bed and mattress are here, and I’m so happy.  I put it together myself, and fucked it up, but didn’t realize it until it started falling apart this morning while Dave and I were in it.  Oops.  Luckily, Dave saw the problem right away and was able to fix it.   I guess I should let him handle such things in the future.  He offered to put it together for me, and I was like ‘oh i’ve got this.’ Ha.  The teasing may never end.   Now that it’s assembled properly, I love it, and am very happy with my purchase. 
  • It totally figures that now that chemo is finally over my body is like ‘oh hey, let’s do this arthritis thing again. It’s been a while.’ My right knee is swollen and it hurts a lot. I need to ask my rads onc when I can start Enbrel again.
  • I’m signed up to go to a lymphedema seminar on May 10th. It’s all about prevention, early detection, and massage techniques. I’m looking forward to it, because it makes me feel like I have some control over whether I get it even though I don’t.
  • I think I had other stuff to say, but chemo brain strikes again. I wonder when the chemo induced brain fog will lift. Oh well. I’m going to get into my comfy new bed and read. 


I’m at bankruptcy court waiting for my case to be called and it’s really boring. I forgot my Nook. So I’ve been texting Scott, who is in a consult right now. He will come back to the following texts, which he will love.

It’s J today instead of the Trustee. I hate J.

Though I have to admit she’s going fast and being pleasant enough.

Okay I was wrong. Not fast.

D is here wearing jeans with a suit jacket.

I think I’m going to start wearing dress sweats and crocs to court.

I think that the cause of the zombie apocalypse will be listening to too many mind numbingly boring 341 meetings. Thoughts?

We are still on the 9:00. I should be trustee. I will keep this shit moving on time.

Fuck this shit is boring. I might rather be at chemo. 🙂
Just kidding!